GOOD F*CKING RIDDANCE 2020

Twenty twenty has been a rough year for everyone. We suffered the loss of lives, freedom, and justice. It truly has tested our patience and has woken us up to realize all the little things that make us feel free. Like hugging our friends and family, eating at a restaurant, big gatherings, concerts, festivals, etc. This year we may have very few resolutions for the new year because we realistically do not know what is going to happen. We can’t leave everything behind in 2020 because our big problems haven’t been resolved. I feel like we are walking on one big gigantic egg shell of an earth that is waiting to crumble. The only thing we can do is hope for another day and in the meantime enjoy what we have as much as possible. To make things less overwhelming, we need to make small realistic and measurable goals because we can’t get from A to Z in one day. You have to put in the work to make things happen. It really tests your patience and this year I know my patience is very slim. It takes the little goals, the little victories, to get to the big ones. It helps that big goal become that much more monumental and meaningful. Celebrate every victory- even the tiny ones because it does count and helps make the days more worthwhile.  

This post got me thinking about my past a bit.  I remember when I was in high school I used to do cross country. Me, running? Funny. I used to get anxiety every time we would have a meet or anytime something was timed and people were watching. I didn’t like any attention on me, I didn’t like the loud cheering and the pressure and how my breath would get dry from the dirt in the air. When I run I like to do it at my own pace and not feel the pressure to beat the clock. I would be that one person to never finish a race. The one time that I did, I was so excited but soon realized I didn’t see the person timing, my coach, or my teammates. They forgot about me, but I wasn’t mad.  I was just glad I finished the race. My coach told me later on that a good way to make 3 miles seem bearable is to make checkpoints. For example, I would find a tree or a sign while I was running. Then I would say in my head that I would only have to run until there and then I can take a little break. Once I caught my breath I would make another checkpoint until I finally finished the race.

My point here is we need tiny checkpoints to get to our goal. We need things to look forward to, we need something to hope for, we need to make smaller goals to get to our big goal. It makes it seem like our goal isn’t years away because we are accomplishing other goals on the way. With these checkpoints, you are completely in control of setting your own pace. And even if the big goal doesn’t happen, at least we have other goals to look back on. My goal of 2021 is to have goals that I can keep up with and to find something... anything to keep me going. Anything to make this time of patience and waiting more bearable. To get to freedom of this virus who has held us prisoner for the duration of 2020- for it to let us free and finish our race. 2020 took so much from us, it is time to take it back and make something out of it. And on that note, we would like to wish you all a very happy and healthy New Year!